Day 4 is complete and under my mama’s belt! Today came with the good and the bad. I know my mama is so frustrated with all the things that she is so use to doing by herself, for herself and her everyone else. All the simple things we do everyday…..such as making dinner, taking a shower, walking to the bathroom, going to get a haircut… all of these things that seem so simple and are part of our everyday lives, has become a task for my mama. Asking for help has always been so hard for her and now she has no choice but to ask. I am the same as my mama in this aspect.. I’m stubborn, independent and like things done a certain way. I can’t imagine her frustration. Talked to my stepdad earlier and today has been a tuff day for her today and I hope tomorrow is better for her. I hope and pray that God gives her the comfort in having to accept the help that she needs right now but strength to keep her still strong.
Today I thought I would share some more insight of who my mama truly is… I don’t even know if I can express her in words. She is certainly one-of-a-kind! She is strong, stubborn, independent. She is a firecracker and she is funny! She loves to laugh and to make others happy. She is human, she has made mistakes but she has learned and bettered herself. She has always held her head high. She loves her husband and her dog. She loves her children and her grandchildren. She loves her family more then anything. She carries hurt from things people have said and done, but she will walk away and carry the pain inside. It takes her a lot to blow up but when she does you had better watch out. She is very straight forward but she is honest. She hates spiders. She loves to help others, she will give you the shirt off her back even if it means she has to struggle to put one of hers. She is a sister, a daughter, a friend, a wife and a mother.
She loves hard, she loves deep.
She is amazing.
Tonight my stepdad took her to get her head shaved again. It was cold and a lot of work. As hard as it was for my stepdad to take her to Wal-Mart.. I find comfort in knowing that she is still stubborn and sassy enough that she believed it HAD to be done. I’m thankful that I have an amazing stepdad who takes AMAZING care of my mama and who loves her the way he does! Through all of this the lady that shaved her head tonight was kind enough not to charge them anything for doing it. It’s the little things and it is these simple things that remind us that there are even angles here on earth that do things out of the goodness and kindness of their heart. To do something for someone you don’t know and know that person can do nothing at all for you… is a sign of character. To the lady that shaved my mama’s head tonight…. thank you<3 It may have been simple but I do not know if she will ever know how big of a deal it was for my mama to get it done.
I know many of you don't know her besides that a month ago she was diagnosed with brain cancer. She is so much more then that though and she has endure so much and won every battle. Today she completed day 4 of treatments as well as surviving brain surgery as well as living everyday with MS all within the last month. Yes she has angels surrounding her! I know not only my papa and grandma and sister are watching over her but God is too. Everything that God allows to come our way is for a purpose. He uses every heartache and struggle to create us into the better person he has intended for us to become. No pain is ever wasted and I know he several Angels surrounding my mama…even through this pain.
Even through all of this I find comfort in knowing that everyday from now until forever this beautiful lady is my mother. I pray for her every day. I have been told to pray hardest when it is hardest to pray. Even on the tuff days if nothing else I say the Lords prayer. I know God will always keep giving and I know he is providing not only for my mama but for our family. I know that praying is a privilege and I cant lose sight of that.
I know there are angels working in my mama's life right now, I know God is working in her life. I know that God is working in my family's life and I know that angels are working in our lives as well. To our Angels watching over all of us… thank you! Sometimes we have angels here on earth too and I'm thankful for them too!